Yesterday I cried. Today I cried. Tonight I'm crying again. The small things in life I still can't get over...
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Saturday, November 24, 2012
The one
Sometimes you get to meet him, but then you let him go, because his love is so great that it scares you...
Guys guys guys...
I read something today and it made complete sense to me! So here goes:
"If you wanna be with me, say so, if we're talking to other people, let me know so I can do my thing too, if we only talking to eachother so we can grow into something, tell me so I can show you how loyal and trustworthy I am, if you arent ready for a serious relationship, let me know from the jump, but please please please don't make me fall for you if you're not ready to catch me"
X
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Burst or Bursted? Either way my bubble popped :(
You know that feeling when you think you look totally cool... only to have your bubble bursted* by some fashion-dummy?! Well I have :(
It's Sunday and like every other Sunday morning I get up and go to church.
Since last Tuesday I'm wearing glasses again. People don't know me with glasses, because I only wore/wear them during class. I got my first pair when I was 15. Those were some ugly purple ones and I can't imagine I was totally crazy about them! Luckily I came to my senses when I had to choose my second one; those were more neutral. But clumsy me sat on them and they broke. Time for new glasses I thought, but every time I was postponing it, until my brother ordered his online. When his package finally came, he wasn't that satisfied with how they looked, but I liked them (on me) and suggested to just order new ones. So that's how I got my new frame. They're black Ray Bans and they do make me look kinda nerdy :p.
I can survive without them, however I still need them for stuff like reading and recognizing people from a distance.
So this morning I wasn't really in the mood for make-up and i decided to wear my new glasses. Aside from covering up my sleepy face, they perfectly matched my outfit! They made me look more sophisticated. Or so I thought...
As soon as I arrived I got comments on the new "look". People were asking whether they were real or just another accessory of mine. Not that that's a bad thing, but the way they asked it said enough. One girl just literally said they were ugly, without me asking for her opinion! Now that was really mean! But I let it go and didn't respond to that. It's just that I'm not the type of person to comment rudely on things that aren't even my business and it's hard sometimes to accept that not everyone is like me. Luckily I'm still able to listen to myself. I love my glasses and they will keep me company for now :)
Love, M
*(apparently it should be "burst" but I thought that sounded weird)
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Sorry...
Sometimes it's a dilemma whether to say sorry or not... You do regret doing something which might have hurt someone, but what if that person clearly doesn't like to talk about the topic. I know it sounds a bit vague, let's just have a look at my case.
So there's this guy in my class who is usually very involved in whatever we do as a group, talks quite a lot, makes jokes now and then... Just a typical fun classmate. But last week he looked a bit off. Before class had started, some of my mateys and I we're talking about our plans to go to Nickerie with the whole group. So when he arrived, we excitedly told him about the trip, but his reaction was cold. We instantly noticed his outfit: a fancy longsleeve shirt all buttoned up, different shoes, shiny watch AND he had shaved! Now that would explain his behavior: He was going on a date! The most natural thing to do was to start asking questions about who and where and we kinda started teasing him. He kept saying it was nothing, but nobody believed him. Later in class even my teachers (I can't call them professors right...) noticed that he was acting a bit different and even they made a joke about his "date", saying he looked a little nervous. At the end of the day he still didn't wanna tell us and we all went home that evening.
The next day I asked another classmate of mine if she knew what was up with him the day before. She said she didn't know exactly, but as far as she knows him, he does take distance when being teased. Okay so then I knew I shouldn't be making stupid jokes with him.
Three days later we we're in the same building. We would be the only two attending class (cus the others would prepare for their exam the next day). Since we were alone, I dared to ask him again about that day. Explaining the outfit he told me he had to go to his cousin's birthday dinner. I thought it was weird, cus birthdays are supposed to make you happy, and he obviously wasn't. So I asked him why he was being that silent then, on which he answered that thát was something else he wouldn't wanna share.
Later that evening something popped into my head! I could remember something happened 3 years ago, but I wasn't so sure of it. So yesterday I googled around and found out that on that exact day his brother (I think) died in an accident. I felt a little bad. I would've felt horrible if I had lost someone so dear to me while others were making a joke about it.
So I gotta say I'm sorry! It was none of our intention to laugh about something so serious. But I still have my doubts...
Xx
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